夜晚..

有人说，
天蝎座
白天是坚强的，夜晚却是脆弱的
是啊
每个晚上，都是孤单的，寂寞的
每个晚上，都想出去
害怕寂寞，害怕孤单
但这些都是不能免掉的
还是得面对这恐怖的空虚

昨晚，为自己的做事情想了一遍
终于，明白自己真的错了
逃避的后知后觉
是这样的感觉吧。。

事情是自己决定的，
谁都不能怪
要怪就怪自己固执
因为我的固执让很多人都为我气馁
有什么办法？倔强的结果就是一个人走完自己决定的路。。
哭着跪着也得把它走完。。

自己从头到尾都未曾明白
为什么自己要那么固执
为了面子为了尊严为了自尊？
放屁。。
这些都是在自己胡扯。。

即使有伴没伴也好
孤单寂寞还是不停的围绕着我
从小到大，没停过
即使敢爱了，最终还是得分离收场
让两个人偏题鳞伤
又何苦呢？
问问自己吧。。

对不起，这次真的是我错了
我不奢望什么原谅，
我知道，我做了什么就应该承受后果
我知道不可能重新来过
我也不知道我能做什么
只希望你的下一个她能给你灿烂的明天
对不起。
它从未消失..一直在我们心里面..

written by zoey.

^^ ~

我爱她~ =D

刚睡醒的头发.. xDD

就让这一切由零开始 .. =)

ZOEY ONG

结束了~

问题一直不断发生
而且解决不了
只好分手来结束这一切痛苦

本来以为还可以好聚好散
做不成情人还以为可以做回朋友
但你都视我为敌了
说我在编故事
说我在制造开场白
哈哈
可笑
你认为这样嘛这样咯
我自己做什么，我很清楚
清者自清~

但是有些人就会把错误全部加在我身上
而且还做到一副无辜样
很可怜很悲惨酱
唉.. 我天生衰运
全部分手的理由都是因为我的错~ 你只是被你认为可恶的我伤害~
别人看了几同情你~安慰你~
不错的手段嘛..
我勒? 就一直给人家讲坏话咯
讲到我几不好几不好都有咯~
早就料到了的啦.. 我就是这样没有脑的咯..
我就做坏人咯.. 你就做超级大好人~

分手后就变了个样
这就是我最歧视的事情
反正不在我需要关心的范围内
现在最重要的.. 是和那个大笨蛋说清楚..
就没有负担了 =)

written by zoey

一首歌,,

一对一 对你来说是一种折磨
爱情里 你贪图的角色太多
闭上一只眼还不够
最好弄瞎自己的懦弱
让你 继续挥霍

也曾经 曾经想过不要再继续
但是你 总能让我继续沈溺
看你像只蜜蜂来去
身上沾着不同花蜜
爱情对你只是附属品
附属在你专有的贪心

我从来都搞不懂你
把爱情弄的脏兮兮
是因为你太过聪明
还是我不懂放弃

我从来都搞不懂你
犯错的人却先哭泣
哭着求我原谅你
原谅之後你继续
永无止境的悲剧

你说你总会觉悟
但我们时间不同步
看着你 错的每一步
每一步都提醒着我
世间多残酷

我从来都搞不懂你
把爱情当做是游戏
是因为你太过聪明
还是我不懂放弃

我从来都搞不懂你
不想继续就该敢停
哭着求我原谅你
原谅之後你继续
由我开始我喊停

,,,,, !!

刚收到信息
马上起上一把火
怎么全都是你希望，你觉得，你感受？
那我呢？！
心灵的声音你何时有尝试想去听？
我在想什么，我都没有说
因为我想让你用你的真心来对待我
用心来体会我在想什么！！
不是只是看表面和表情就来判定我！

你觉得我们之间必须尽快说清楚
我是你的女朋友呢？还是你是我的操纵器？
因为你一句不喜欢，我就可以完全不管自己想要什么而试着去迁就你？
你希望事情是这样那样，那我就可以完全跟着你，自己的事什么都不理？
你不喜欢，我就很喜欢？！
怎么可以为了让你自己不要不开心而逼我赶快解决掉这些你认为不必要的想法！

真的是
快要气到我爆炸了
我自己也是
明知道自己在他心里的分量根本微不足道
明知道他不可能把自己放在第一位
明知道他的生活里还有很多事情都比我重要
何必为这些事情气自己
自己拿苦瓜吃

不是所有的事情都一定要跟着你的逻辑走
请让我有自己能呼吸的自由空间！

written by zoey.

F* OFF!!!!!

PEK CEK!!!
make myself kaki angry kaki kek ki nia
WHAT FOR?!
wanna smash all thing down
THIS IS NOT I EXPECTED!!
sucks!!!!!

!@#$%^&*
realize my ability is so freaking damn now!!
GILA soon

written by zoey.

The Day..

back from cruise ship..
till now still tired..
lack of sleep..

haiz.. luck so damn
lose all..
but have a enjoy night with him..
the first trip :)
*miss your arm*

yiwen them come find this morning.
lunch with them and colleagues
alot to do at work today
move whole display again.
tired d still more tired

dinner with colleagues at pisa corner
bo hami want eat
been force need to eat all..

Start to miss you after the first second I leave.. :(
written by zoey.

Smurf smurf

dunno what something wrong today
always smurf-ing~
haha
morning before work
draw a smurfi out
quite nice ah.. beh pai ma^^

after dinner
i go buy smurf again *still wondering why i smurf the all way round xD*
whole day free tiok play smurf game..
really smurf fever..
oh noo.. wahaha

tomorrow go piano
then after that go cruise ship again d
hope i enjoy there :)

end.

搞乱了情绪，何必那么执着?
written by zoey.

Cheer..

Back from camp..
back to work..
damn sleepy when work..
mouth open dunno how many time

dinner with colleague at bb
again fire on my stomach..
haiz..

now wanna sleep early d..
nothing much to say..
bye.
the end.

Facebook update :
Life .. need to be meaningful.. must be full of joy , sad and happy.. if you spend your life time just to wasting your time, it is meaningless..
Jiayous Everyone! make your life full with beautiful colours! ;D

祝你幸福
都说了只是错觉

written by zoey.

Camp..

Mood still not that good..
I really dunno how to control..
only let my world to silence
stupid me..
the only way i can skip all this from thinking
is to silence all the way round..

camp at school today
wake up early back late..
tired than work
ate too much till now gastric again
tired tired and tired

Taught them marching and bomba ..
PC wasn't that good so let other taught them
learn learn learn..
night game break by teacher
so sked die mia teacher
behh ki..

Picture are uploaded in facebook..
Here is the link..
enjoy :)

tired..
sleep first..

Facebook updated status : 一个人的暴风雨`

every problem comes with a question
and yet every question will always found their answer..

written by zoey

Terrible day!!!!

today....
SUCKS

心情起来已经很低落了。。
但工作时给老板骂了。。
说为什么总是做不好，做不到
不是我不想做，我已经尽力了。。
休息吃晚餐时又。。
不只一个人吃饭，还傻傻的等到剩十分钟才开始吃。。
真的想不到。。你竟然丢下我一个人。。
回到做工的地方。。还剩时间休息，但是我没休息就开始做工了。。
忍着泪，继续做工。。

回家路上。。
跟爸说明天的camp说女生不能过夜
需要他载回来。。
但是他们死都要我在那边过夜
难道你们不会担心你们的女儿在外面过夜吗？
那我的存在还有什么意义？
够伤心了，却越伤越深。。

回到家。。
活该的internet不能用..
就叫哥帮我弄
心情不怎么好所以大声了点
哥也在玩dota不要别人烦他
就这样吵起来了
爸也来参一脚
说我这个样子别人才会对你发脾气
算了！！！ 不用就不用！！
真的很生气

没有错。。我的固执的性格让每个人都想远离我！
这就是我的结果！
在房间里哭得像无助的孩子
没肩膀靠，只有寂寞的陪伴
打了几通电话。。不是没有空就是没人接
是伤透了。。那一秒种，我竟然有不想活下去不想被折磨的冲动
是第一次，我是第一次那么想

眼泪快要淹满整个房间。。
而被窝里只剩下泪水。。
写着写着又哭了。。
既然每一方面都那么差。。那我跟垃圾有什么两样。。
连续哭了两个小时。。
而事情还是无法解决。。
我会记住这一天。。
因为。。这是我哭得最伤，最无助的一次..

written by zoey.

Off day..

So many program today..
from morning to evening..
wake up mood suddenly down 90%

after bath then beng hong fetch me go yiwen house..
then we sit yiwen car go plus two makan..
chit chat there.. bo hami want talk but need to be okay when with them
after breakfast back to home again..
copy movie..
then back to yiwen house again..
really go and back go and back..~

afterthat we go paradise..
paradise..
ko kah bo mood d..
try to control it ho seh..
fetch stella le then we go there..
took photos at there.. =)

after play a while then go tesco sakae sushi lunch..
pictures.. =)

salmonnn~ favorite

wasabi~~ most favorite!!

then yiwen fetch me pi piano..
kena bully for 2 hours..
damn..
after home beng hong come find me swimmmm
wah.. i am so tired d wor..
haha.. nvm.. then we go swim till 7..

breakfast and lunch jiak ho liao but dinner is cintan mee..
after dinner watch the smurf movie.. Watch hundred time also so nice.. haha
now si sipek tired d..

她给得了的幸福我越来越没有能力办得到了
只希望你在她身边可以快快乐乐的
没什么时间陪你
而她却代替了我的位置
陪你逛，陪你玩，陪你疯
再加上最近的我心情不怎么好，不什么想说话
没有了付出。。也累了
所以慢慢地疏远了。。
我无能为力…
希望她给你的，能让你开心
不像现在的我，什么都给不了
好失败..

低落..怎么越来越想不开..
written by zoey.

Time..

morning waked by mum..
she talk about last night
she go dinner how happy how happy
then i show her the bag ..
she said pasar ada d lo..
haiyo.. this standard not same la..

time pass fast today..
just work from 11 until 7..
rest time go food court eat with colleague
talk much with her..
talk until forget time
rush back

many things to do today..
actually not many
just my permanent off day
then other permanent see me nothing to do
so they ask me help them..
only knew they havent done much lo..
the fourth time i swt when working

tomorrow off day..
but still have to go piano..
3 until 5
morning go breakfast with yiwen and bh..
gonna sleep early
but still miss the smurf game..
wanna play la.. but energy sudah finish..
bo hami mood.. haiz

stop here.. end.

Facebook updated status :
好滚的总是编到天翻地覆, 但其实什么都不懂。 真材实料的总是沉默, 但一旦说出来可千真万确..

有时候爱会铭心刻骨` 只是有太多美中不足
[伤人的话语]

written by zoey

WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I bought that bag d!!!~~
dear sponser de~ ^^
really LOVE IT!!!!!!

pictures =D


haha.. steam face
morning before work i found the smurf miaaa game
nice nice.. nice to play =)
today work like so guai guai de
sometime very busy but sometime very free..

rest time go food court dinner with him
then he really bought that bag for me~
ahhh.. so happy ~~~~~

but today my permanent tiok complain nur..
haiz..
our table bo heng..
dunno what is wrong ah
shirt also put until so nice di
but still no sales..
promotion so big there di..
see her kena complain xim tia tia..
aiks.. need to jia you d

today is a good day ~
I like today~ 8-12-2011

-the end

written by zoey

talk talk talk...

WAH..
today talk and kapsiao sipek many
work a little only
go in work nia they tiok chit chat there d
cham them kapsiao lo
today just walk ; stand ; talk
haha

really geram with that shark..
hate that shark!!
b*b*..
geli die nia..
pattern aneh geli d
temper still so sucks..
ishhh

lunch alone..
mcd eat fried chicken
haha
si also dont want eat kfc

after lunch then go Forever 21 see shirt
see bo balik padini'
so lucky me aim tiok satu bag!!
wow~~!!!
after think and aim it for 2 hours
ask them reserve for me first..
I want naaa.. but.. expensive..
haiz.. not enough to buy.. TT
until now still miss the bag..
line and blue black de..
wao wao!! melt liao.. xD

leg dunno why so pain today..
just now fall down from sofa
damn.. PAIN!
black green d..

stop here..

原来又只是一时的迷惑..

written by zoey

How come?

today like no mood to work ..
not same as usual busy this and that
but just stand there faaa dai
steam and serious face
they sked all go far far from me
haha
how come ah?
what is wrong ah?
I tak tau..

first session hiding inside store room to arrange the shirt
siok sangat sitting
but after dinner
need to stand outside
really like steam ka
just stand there watching wall
haiyo.. emzai hamishu

lunch and dinner with jun jun
lunch we go batu maung eat
I will remember that mee goreng
hiam si..
dinner we go eat sushi king!!
omg.. i long time din eat d
eat like a siao po
wasabiiiii
I suka i suka
thanks so muchii jun jun.. haha

again mistake..
I really want burst d..
please !
not again
give up first before you fall into it!!
when only I can AWAKE !!
haiz..

damn headache now..
oh damn..
stop damn ing
off to sleep now.. nitez..

几时才能清醒?

written by zoey.

Woooooooot

Burst d !!
Supper two night d..
my body cant afford it..
some more eat damn much..
waiting to sick soon
feel not that well now d

supper with colleagues at ikan bakar
I go wrong place
aiks
alone waiting like stupid
so dark there
but at last they come fetch me go

Enjoy much with them
the surrounding feeling are not same as gathering friends
more fun & more exaggeration
haha.. so chim mia english
love after work de them!
can siao like hell also nvm
laugh as much as we can !!

yiwen & him acc me dinner at food court just now
wah.. talk a lot alien language

wanna buy shirt..
but no time no money..
aiyo
kepuasan tidak dapat dimaksimumkan
wahahaha..

just now another colleagues ask me why you leave me there
then i explain nur
said i ask you back first de
then he said he wont let his girl like that
he said will bring her until she sit down with her friend only he leave
listen d kinda hurt lu.. like saying you not good..
dunno how to explain the feeling

tired and sleepy..
body feel hot hot..
better rest now.. good night..

ENJOY TONIGHT!

那些点点滴滴.. 依然怀念..

无助的时候还是会想起你

written by zoey.

错就错- 张靓颖

以為我 沒有你 還有很多
​為甚麼 我甚麼 也不想做
​錯了 你離開 卻沒有帶走 ​
你承諾我的執著

以為懷念會難過
​原來遺忘更寂寞
​原來我不要解脫
以為我會怨恨你 ​
想不到越恨越想你 ​
愛情太幽默
​反正已經把回憶當做收穫 ​
反正一切都是太愛你的錯
錯就錯

我以為 你付出 不夠我多
​不適合 就分手 只是瞎說
​都錯了 想起來 過去的相處
​走下去 誰會幸福

誤會了你的心事
才錯過你的溫柔 ​
誤會了只要相愛 就代表一切 ​
以為在一起的時候最懂你
​原來分開才明白愛是甚麼 ​
我錯了 我認錯 錯就錯

Hello..

Back to here again..
it is already 1 am
but nvm la.. tomorrow noon

today fitting room
damn busy there..
fold and fold and fold non stop..
hate the buttons!
make my hand so damn pain..
luckily no need to give numbering..
if not more busy..

after dinner pass by jusco
saw camera and go take a look
my colleagues ask me something
I suddenly dunno what to answer
gong diao 5 second

when almost the time finish work
i pass the shirt to them
they give me a special name
dunno why will like that
"灰姑娘"==

tomorrow will be late home
follow colleagues them go makan ho liao..
end-

错误再也没办法弥补`只能说我错得太离谱..

written by zoey.

First week

The First Week!
wow.. I still can survive..
not bad ma..

WORK ; WORK ; WORK
really lag of time..
but some more I still want to vacancy for more jobs..
wahahaha.. IM CRAZY

same as last..
many thing has been missed out
what to do?
no choice if I choose to work like this..
try to busy as I can
to tell myself that my life wouldn't that meaningless
and responsibility to deal with
at least I can tell myself that I still alive

but when I look back..
I realize that my mistake has completely changing my future life..
especially.......
when I do something I not suppose to done,
at the same time I am losing my way
and at the same time too I losing what I am holding

yea.. how stupid you are..
stupid mistake you had ever made!!
other part I dont care but not this part !!
silly!!!

written by zoey.